I am an anxious person and take anxiety medicine, go figure. If you knew me personally you would know I was high strung and wrapped to tight and why I needed meds. I have no idea why I am like this but this is my life. My meds are not working this past week because I have anxiety BIG time about Shaun and school. If you read yesterdays post you will see why.
Anxiety is a weird thing. I can go weeks without getting anxious about anything then BAM it hits me hard and fast. There is so much going on right now with Shaun’s school, going to IZEAFest and leaving my kids with my mother, work and just everyday happenings. All is takes is one little thing to get me worked up then I worry about every single thing that goes on. It tears me up inside and sometimes causes my stomach to be upset. I know people say just go with the flow and I try I really do but for me sometimes it is just impossible. True me I wish I was more laid back and could just go with the flow. I sometimes think my life would go so much smoother if I did. I wonder what happens to a person at birth that causes them to have anxiety. Or do you develop anxiety later in life? Maybe I should research this so I have a better understanding of how this works.
I fear my kids will have anxiety like I do and that scares the crap out of me. I am most worried about Shaun right now because he had a slight stutter when he was younger that would come and go and we worked with the school speech pathologist last year to get it under control. Over the summer not a stutter to be found. As soon as this school year started I think things have been pretty stressful for him and his stutter and difficultly getting words out are back. I am guessing this is a form of anxiety. Stress is causing him to not be able to get his thoughts out. I get so upset when I see this because I know how I worry about everything and at his age he should have no worries at all. It makes me feel like I am failing as a parent and not protecting him like I should be. Well, that is all I can handle writing about this so have a Happy Friday and a great weekend. Head on over to Dad Blogs and check out all of the awesome dads and moms.
